I dont know...maybe its just me, but when youre married you arent supposed to question the quality of your marriage 25 times a day are you? arent you supposed to be happy and know that the person you said "i do " to is in fact the one that you want to spend the rest of your life with? at least thats what my understanding of marriage was when i cam into it. but as every day passes i find myself wondering if i did that right thing... I wish i could be happy and know what my future holds but im having trouble with that.

So here I am...A little info for all...Im a new mom,my baby is 10.5 weeks old.SHE A DOLL.I should be happier than ever am I right?Well,I AM happy with motherhood.theres nothing better.the problem im having is my HUSBAND!Hes always been on the lazy side and I guess I never really realized how bad it was until the baby was born.He thinks that b/c I dont work that I should take FULL baby duty.Hes probably changed 2 diapers by himself since her birth.Maybe a total of 5 with my help...He works overnight and i understand hes tired but when he gets home he goes to bed and sleeps maybe for 6 hours or so and if i ask him to get up for a bit and help me with something i get the response that hes too tired...well i say IM TIRED TOO!!! then he goes on this ''schpeel'' about how i dont have to "work" later...umm...EXCUSE me! i work me ass off 24 hours a day. i keep our house clean as can be,do his laundry,cook his dinner and get no help with the baby.sometimes,well alot of times, i wonder if marrying was the right thing to do....i mean, am i crazy? its not fair,am i right?